2010-03-22

Words

So I abandoned Wilja. I feel horrible for doing it but yeah... Gabriel got more story to tell right now so I will try to focus on him for awhile. I got a few years history on him, I just need to put words on it.

I like words, words are so much better than numbers. Words are beautiful and magical, numbers are just... symbols. They don't mean anything to me, there is no pleasure in them. Well, I guess it goes beyond "no pleasure" really, numbers are painful and hard and they honest to god scare me. And just admitting that feels like such a relief. After my post the other day about dyscalculia I got invited to a forum for others with the same problem as I do and it was wonderful. People were very welcoming and it really helped seeing that other people feel the way I do. Maybe it is strange that other people being scared of numbers, or feeling depressed over the inability to work them is a good thing, but it helps not being alone.

Anyways, I had planned to write about my love for words, not my hate for numbers. Have you ever thought about how some words sound? How they roll over your tongue and you almost feel like saying them over and over just because they are beautiful? Or is it only me that is that strange?
Or have you thought how some words just.. fit? How they just sound right for what they mean?

Like the word "fuck"... it is such a small word, a hard word. But for the act? It is perfect, it's not about making love.. it's about something harder and it is just a good word for it. Trust me, the Swedish word for it doesn't sound good! So yeah, I like the word fuck.
I also like the word "serendipity". It's a cute word and it just fits perfect with the meaning.
I actually don't like the word "blog". It's small and hard but not in the good way, just in an annoying way that makes me want to avoid it.

Well, I guess todays post will be labeled under "rambling" (a word I do like) because I feel like I really got nothing said at all. Ah well.

Over and out

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